[d12kor]

For me i guess its because I fall too easily for others, maybe it's for the thrill, or maybe a distraction from the daily stresses from life.

I came to know this bar girl from my recent company trip to chiangmai, out of curiosity I decided to settle into a random bar and experience paying barfine and doing a ST since I have never done it before

throughout the time at the bar there were many other girls trying to get my attention to buy them drinks, but only this 1 girl that caught my eye, and my mind was set. Even though we were drinking in a group, I tried my best to talk to her, tell her jokes, and eventually hinting her that I would like to see her after work. It was all good, she even rejected another patron who tried to bring her back.

We eventually left the bar together, i suggested we go for a meal and get to know each other, where she told me about her story and throughout the convo I somehow found myself forming an emotional bond with her.

we did the deed nearby and off we go, next day I find myself thinking about her, and decided to see her again in the evening.

Similarly we left the bar together and this time after the deed, I decided to spend the night with her until the next day. We cuddled, kissed like bf/gf and at this point I cannot deny that I am deep in the KC trap

Next day I left Chiangmai and damn it's the most miserable flight back, knowing that I will probably not see her again for a long time. I am married and I cant just randomly travel to Chiangmai solo without valid reason

We do have each others contact on Line but I tried to control myself by not texting her, but a few days later she texted back saying that she misses me, haha, after that we tried to text on and off, i have even video called her once and it made me feel more miserable

I read stories about bar girl doing these sort of stunts and ask for money, but my mind is not being rationale, even though it is likely that I am just another customer to her, I really wished she can tell me that, so that I can snap out of it

sian